Well… my gosh I have made an absolute mess of everything and I have no idea what possessed me to think that I could do a course like this one.

I am overwhelmed I’m disorganised, I’m distracted. I have challenges that are really
pushing me mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially.

My mobility is a lot better, but still not perfect and causes a lot of distraction and fear for me… at times a lot of anxiety and I am just so disorganised!

But what I’ve realised, just from the little that I have picked up from MKE that I need this course to deal with my subconscious and take control; put organisation back into my life; to start putting things on paper instead of carrying it all in my head; that I must use a diary and I must just deal at you know an hour at a time in order to put order back into my life.

I just hope that my late realisation and understanding of what I have to do is not too late for me to stay on the MKE course. So today I have to do my statement and my blog and deal with my confusion.

I have just been carrying so much in my head instead of doing it on paper, keeping the diary, making notes and now I have to get back into writing. I need to do that so yes today I have to do this.

I know what I want out of life so it’s just to put it down on paper. It may not be done correctly but it will be a start so I’m going to do that soon after the calls and tasks that I have to do that are critical and cannot be ignored or delayed.