I am acutely aware that I have all kinds of opinions about E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.!!

I especially have opinions about how things should go, based, of course, on MY needs/desires/comfort zone(s)/ego/stories, etc.

So today, when I got on the Week 2 webinar, I had a WHOLE hissy fit internally because “they” didn’t hear me and didn’t honor my request to have a human on the screen along with the slides. I actually spent the first part of the webinar in high pissosity because “they” should have heard me and done it my way.

The good news is, I’ve been around the block a few times, and probably one of the most important lessons I heard many years ago was “Trust the Process.”

Now, of course, this phrase can, when the ego is rampant, make my hackles go up. And yet, when I am being willing and open, I am able to do just that, to lean into trusting the process, into remembering that I signed up for this and into the awareness that the people “in charge” might actually know what they’re doing – go figure!

And, most importantly, even though part of me wants things to be different than they are, how they are is perfect because that’s what is.

As I Am able, like I was eventually able to do today, I breathe, choose to relax, and allow myself to become willing and open.

I let myself go along for the ride that I’m on rather than giving in to the little one inside who feels scared and worried that we’re not safe and letting her throw an entire tantrum. As I Am able to lean in, the process unfolds, my little girl and the big ego relax, and we experience the magic and wonder of what is.

So, can I safely say there won’t be other emotional tantrums as we progress through the course? Maybe, maybe not. What I can say is, I am willing to trust the process and to know that “they” have been doing this for 15 years and may possibly know a bit more than I do, merely 7 days in – I can only laugh at myself…

As I close, I embrace wisdom from Scroll I:

Today, I begin a new life.

Today I shed my old skin, which hath, for too long, suffered the bruises of failure and the wounds of mediocrity.

Today I am born anew and my birthplace is a vineyard where there is fruit for all.

I form good habits and become their [captive].

Today I begin a new life.

And I make a solemn oath to myself that nothing retards my new life‘s growth.

Today my old skin has become as dust. I walk tall among [my sisters and brothers] and they will know me not, for today I am a new [woman] with a new life.

Og Mandino, The Greatest Salesman, pp. 51, 55 and 57

On to week 2!!

Mahalo