Making decisions has always been tough for me. Whether its something mundane like what to eat for dinner or something else that is much bigger like what house to buy, I tend to overthink everything in my life.

I know a lot of that stems from early traumas and trying to maintain some form of safety or security. Along with making some really poor choices throughout my life.

Financial investments, relationships, trusting the wrong people. You name it, I have had issues with wondering if I made the right choice.

This week I really tried my best to look for it around me, within me. I tried being more instinctual than logical. It has worked for me in the past but I often regret not doing the right thing at the right time.

I am also still struggling with my DMP. I keep thinking I want some huge transformational changes in my life and even when something feels good at the time I write it down I later am sort of numb to what I thought was something I really wanted even before it comes to be.

I have a pretty good life and am generally happy.

I know I have some purpose in this life so maybe that’s what I should be looking for instead of trying to decide what it is that I really want. Funny how I just realized that during my week of decisiveness.

Until Next Time…………