Hi everyone,

I first wrote these words nearly ten years ago, when I was introduced to what was then called The Master Key Mastermind Alliance (MKMMA).

Today it’s known as The Master Key Experience (MKE), and I’ve found my way back to it—not because I failed, but because life keeps asking deeper questions the longer you stay alive.

I thought revisiting that earlier writing might help someone else see how a person describes themselves at different points in their life. The facts haven’t changed. The feelings have. And that contrast alone says more than most lessons ever could.

When I wrote the original piece in 2015, I was checking a box. Fulfilling an assignment. I didn’t linger. I didn’t dig. I didn’t yet understand how much material I was standing on.

Now, looking back, what comes to mind isn’t a tidy narrative—it’s the sheer insanity of the life I’ve lived. Truly. From the moment of conception to the moment I’m typing this sentence, my life has been a series of experiences that could fill volumes.

Trauma and grace. Destruction and survival. Life, Love, regret, death, abundance, sorrow, joy—and everything in between.

I’ve often thought I should write a book. Maybe a series. Not because my story is unique in its suffering, but because it’s unique in its sequence—and familiar enough that someone else might feel less alone reading it.

Some might gasp. Others might shrug and think I had it easy. Both reactions would be valid.

This Christmas, my now-13-year-old daughter gave me a journal “to leave my legacy.” That stopped me cold. Maybe that’s the real beginning.

For now, this project is simpler: I’m revisiting what I wrote in 2015, red-lining it against who I am now, and seeing what reveals itself. If it brings relief, joy, perspective—or even ridicule—so be it.

I cannot color code words here so I am putting in Parentheses what is added or different now than 10 yrs ago.

My name is Kris Disbrow and I live in Vancouver, WA (Battleground, WA as of July 2020) where I was born in 1973 to a 17-year-old single mother (My mom died 6 days prior to her 67th birthday in July 2022, a chapter in of itself).

I had a pretty tough childhood due to that primarily because she was always looking for something from men. I had 3 stepdads by time I was 9 and the 2nd one was terribly abusive, especially to a toddler. (Unfortunately my mother was extremely bi-polar and created many terrible situations for her and me but my daughter got a wonderful “Papa” from it all)

Luckily my grandmother let me come over as much I wanted and smother me with love (I sobbed for 3 days straight when she died, 27 years ago, I loved and adored her beyond words, and miss her deeply still, probably only second to my child), if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have seen age 12 (That’s when my only biological sibling was born, she died Oct of 2024 at 39).

Even with my Grandparents in my life I was seriously troubled. Age 13-23 I did so many reckless things its literally a miracle I am alive (I was a victim, thief, a delinquent, addict, several motor vehicle accidents, high school dropout, and much, much more), let alone successful (I am doing well still but with my current self-advice to me then, well…..you all know how the coulda, woulda, shoulda goes).

I am here to find my bliss, to experience joy and happiness regularly that I have only experienced on the rarest of occasions. (sometimes its more, sometimes its less.

I am super grateful for where I am but extremely frustrated that things could have been unbelievably better if it wasn’t for some poor business decisions and other people, all brought on by my THOUGHTS and part of the journey).

Nothing is more important, cause if I am not in that state of being how can I get others to be? (Again a little jaded but grateful and try to spread love, kindness and gratitude as possible)

My wife Jenn and I have been together for 19 years (28) (married for 7)(16) and we have a nearly 4 year old (13 as of 1/3/13, I keep telling her what a cool birthdate she has) that is awesome (Challenging teenager 😊) little girl named Violet Leigh Disbrow who was named after my Grandmother.

I am a partner (now with my wife) in a large (average) construction company that my wife works (runs) for while operating a second business from home.

I love golf, poker, gardening, prepping and play (Watch funny YouTube videos or Movies) with my daughter. I am blessed! (Even more so)

My life is rife with crazy stories, near death experiences, heartache and lots of luck. Its been a wonderfully challenging ride and look at MKMMA as the tool to my 3rd trimester of existence to be even better than everything before it.

(Regardless of the terrible struggles, In the last 4 years I have lost one uncle, my mother, my 49 yr old best friend of 33 years, 2 employees, my little sister at 39, my 53 yr old brother in law and my closest uncle at 65)

(Like I said above, I think I have enough stories to share that I could encourage or help other people that no matter what you go through you can persevere)

I have also spent the last year and a half going to counseling 2x month. (I stopped in 2017 for a few reasons) The combination of the 2 have made very positive changes in my life. (they did but this course solidified my own power)

The only thing lacking is that passionate exuberance that I started this program last year to find.

Obviously there is something missing but I still have not found it. I do not want to spoil anything for anyone but the question “What am I pretending not to know” is weighing on me.

(I have thought many times about uprooting my self to try and find that superbliss…That once in a lifetime chance to go all in, yet I honestly think that the more-than-often comfort and satisfaction of trust and faith is more rewarding in the end, at least so far for me).

My current occupation is very rewarding financially and because of that I can provide for my wife and daughter without necessarily worrying about the same problems that I did growing up.

(I haven’t had to work more than 5 hrs a week (besides dealing with 6 acres) since 2020. Mainly because we bought out my business partner and my wife wanted to run the company in 2018. That gave me the best opportunity to spend several years bonding with my daughter)

That being said, it does not bring me JOY but I do not think I can make the same income doing other things so I seem to have convinced myself subconsciously that I can sacrifice my happiness in order to make my daughter’s life richer and have many more opportunities than I ever had growing up (OMG she has NO CLUE!)

Because of this course though, I know that is not the truth. I need to take the steps or make the changes within my DMP to really hone in on what it is that will make me happy and blissful cause that is what I am needing most. (I will reiterate what I said previously in a slightly deeper fashion.)

(Many times, in the past 10 years did I think if I was doing exactly as I WISHED I would be in a different space doing different things.

Having had opportunities or challenges to swing off the path that may have been what I thought I wanted at that time, could have been a catastrophic outcome where I would be a fragment of my present self).

(Knowing my current state and what this course has said about following your bliss, the realization dawns on me that if I leaped out at some point in the last decade would I have looked back and wished I had stayed the course? Clearly if there is misery or constant turmoil the choice is much easier, but when things are generally good, well…. why rock the boat.)

(I think the truth about life is to try your best at all of it, but don’t wager a good thing such as a career, spouse, home, for a potential better thing unless you can be willing to take that risk, don’t get me wrong, if you FEEL IT- FOLLOW IT, but don’t get caught up in someone else’s hype because you are progressing).

(If I was a real gambler I would take the odds, after all, a good life is determined by the one who lived it.

Ok, I feel like this is way beyond an “About me’’ piece…)

Until Next Time….