Well, here we are. I cannot believe another year has gone by and 6 months of this course. I have gotten exactly out of it as what I have put into it. About 85% I would say.

I write down 3 gratitude’s daily, A positive memory, exercise, I attempt to do something kind without fail, Shapes throughout the house, read OG almost always as directed, nearly perfected my DMP and put it to music, have my movie poster, The Mental Diet, The Strangest Secret, do the guy in the glass.

Basically, everything except my press release, OATS and NARC.

This was the most I have done since the very first time 10 years ago and I still seem to struggle with the same thing. The sit. I can only say it is me refusing the call.

I feel as if I had done a sit every day that I would be called to leave what I have to discover what I really want (Still unsure) and that makes me uncomfortable.

As I have stated in previous blogs my life is pretty good, most of my peers would want what I have (at least on the surface) and I am grateful for my existence.

My health is good, slowly losing weight and gaining strength, working towards my goal of 225 lbs. I help others often and have more to do in that regard.

The only thing I do not have is that ultimately what I really desire is a blissful, passionate and fulfilling marriage. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not a terrible one but we are not as loving to each other as we could be. I know I can give more to get more but I have my own struggles.

My wife and I have fought more over the past 6 months because of my journey with the Master Key Experience (MKE). I cannot grasp why she cannot come along for the ride and be a part of this, but she has a hang-up with the MLM world as she used to do a few different versions.

Quite spectacularly, I might add, but she sees MKE as that and not a self-improvement program. She did try it once with me on my second year but had a terrible guide that turned her off as well.

She has had to work a TON over the past 3-4 months and I know she has a mountain of concrete and continues to bury herself in self-destructive behaviors (not that I haven’t at times) instead of really doing good things for herself as she has in the past.

That being said all I can do is to continue to work on myself and hopefully that will inspire her, my daughter and others in my life that I care about to do the same.

I will persist until I succeed and will be back in September to continue my journey. With or without anyone else. Perhaps as a guide then? We shall see.

Thanks to Brenda, my guide, and our Marco Polo group that helped push me along this year.

Until Next Time…………