Today felt like one long conversation with myself. As I moved through the day—whether I was walking, working, or just sitting quietly—I kept bumping into the same questions: Who am I? What do I really, really want?
Most of the time, I think I know the answers. I carry this sense of direction, a belief that I’m on the right path. But then, out of nowhere, doubt sneaks in. It’s like the mirror suddenly shifts, showing me a version of myself I don’t fully recognize.
And I’m left standing there, wondering if I’ve been fooling myself or if uncertainty is just part of the process.
One thing is clear: the mirror never lies. It reflects not just my face but the questions I keep asking. Am I chasing the right goals? Am I living authentically? Or am I just moving because it feels safer than standing still?
It’s exhausting sometimes, but also strangely comforting. Because even if I don’t have all the answers, at least I’m asking the right questions.
And maybe that’s the point of the journey—not to arrive at a perfect definition of who I am, but to keep exploring, keep questioning, and keep growing. That is all I can ask of myself…..
“Your words mean a lot, Esther. It’s in these shared reflections that our individual journeys become more meaningful. Thank you for being a part of it.”
What you’re experiencing is real growth Arvid, those “mirror moments” aren’t signs of being lost, but signs that you’re becoming more honest and aligned with yourself. Doubt doesn’t mean you’re off track; it often means you’re on the verge of clarity.
Asking these deeper questions is courage in action, and the fact that you’re willing to look, reflect, and keep moving says everything about your strength. Keep exploring. You’re unfolding beautifully Arvid!
Enjoy the journey! Thank you Arvid
Arvid, it’s truly a pleasure of mine to watch your progression. You have explained yourself very well here with the mirror analogy like Chandracshekar said.
Yes, you are absolutely right that it’s not that you arrived at a perfection definition of who you are but to keep exploring, keep asking questions, and keep growing. Hence it’s a journey and progression. Keep enjoying the process!
Chandrashekar, you have captured very well how Arvid expressed his journey and where he is at.
Isn’t it beautiful to follow each other’s journey here?
“Who am I? What do I really, really want?” I think that even knowing to ask these questions is magnificent. Most people exist in “the river” not realizing there is more, much more. And yes, always growing is a good space to be in!
This is a profoundly moving and beautifully honest piece, Arvid. You’ve put words to that quiet, internal dialogue so many of us have but struggle to articulate. The metaphor of the shifting mirror is powerful and exact.
I find great comfort in your conclusion. You’re right—the journey isn’t about finding a final, fixed answer, but about having the courage to keep asking the questions. The fact that you’re engaging so deeply with your own reflection is a testament to your authenticity, not self-deception. Thank you for this reminder that we are all works in progress. Please keep writing.