In The Master Key Part Fifteen it says:

“Difficulties, inharmonies, and obstacles, indicate that we are either refusing to give out what we longer need, or refusing to accept what we require.

Growth is attained through an exchange of the old for the new, of the good for the better;

… We cannot obtain what we lack if we tenaciously cling to what we have.” Charles Haanel, the Master Key System

When I reread this a light bulb went off and I said, of course that’s what’s been going on and why this week has been such a struggle.

I have been tenaciously clinging to the life I had in New Jersey, and the house I’ve lived in for 41 years, even as I was preparing to finalize the move to Long Beach California.

That I was doing this should not have been surprise but until I reread the above, I just hadn’t put two and two together and figure out why I was struggling.

What was my alternative?

I Can Be What I Will to Be and what I Will to Be is excited and looking forward to a wonderful opportunity to create a new life in a community that’s welcoming and an apartment that’s gorgeous.

I am present to the opportunity to divest myself of things I don’t need, some of which I hadn’t even thought about for years and to create something new, wonderful and enlivening for myself.

I had been thinking about calling Judy, the woman I met when I was looking at the apartment in October, who is my neighbor on the 14th floor. She stopped to talk to me then and what I learned from her, was one of the factors of me, deciding to live there.

I said Do It Now and called her. I am grateful that she answered the phone and we had a wonderful conversation. I could feel my excitement rising, I felt lighter and my hesitancy disappeared.

I am grateful to my son Michael, who is a designer, for working with me to figure out what furniture I should take, picking and ordering new things, so that when my furniture arrives from New Jersey and I will have a functioning beautiful home to move into.

I am excited that I’m taking some of my favorite pieces of furniture and most of the artwork I love and which has made my house a home for all these years.

Tomorrow I will go about the sorting with enthusiasm and figure out the best way to restore order to my home so it is enjoyable to live in until the movers come to pack and load on January 28.

Now that I am no longer tenaciously clinging to the past I am present to happiness, joy, and excitement. I am natures greatest miracle and I greet the new sun with confidence and love.