MKE Week 9 The Long Straight Road 20251123

Picture this, I turned off everything radio, tv, phone, computer and finally my mind. The “Sit.” No reading, no cards, no exercises, no brain matter interference. Family vacationing home alone with just me, myself and I.

What a trio! I closed my eyes and listened to my heart beat my organs moving, making sounds. Feeling my blood moves through my veins.

With my eyes closed I saw images flashing before me and the deeper I concentrated they became clearer. The look was animated buildings came into focus. I began to move my head left, right, up, down and pictures came into focus.

I then stopped head erect facing forward and the picture of my face was before me. The longer I starred the clearer it became.

It’s official I am now in “The Sit” My Guide Ms. Candy, had just complimented “Much better clarity on the details here Roosevelt Great job so when is this happening?”

I immediately froze. This was the only comment on my DMP. She was congratulating me on the job well done, she simply asked, “When is this happening?”

In my mind I replied “Right now, I’m doing it right now” but to my surprise doubt entered “The Sit” I couldn’t clarify fear or indecision. I felt a hole in the pit of my stomach. I begin to wrestle inside, warring against myself.

She had asked the question, “How does it feel saying it three times” I answered it feels great! I really feel good when I say it out loud.

Confused, I ask myself how this can be I’m at the crossroads a year ago where I shut down, I have gone back started from week one in my workbook completing one assignment at a time. Saying “Do it Now, do it Now.”

It was clear to me I had not properly dealt with the old man. You must exchange a new habit for the old one. Verbally I moved on but mentally the deciding factor of change I went to sleep and didn’t realize it until I attempted to go pass subconscious.

You cannot ignore your mind and expect it to respect your choice without a true challenge of change. Hard work with a true plan implemented and acted upon is the only way to defeat who you were.

Now, you must demand who you want to become to stand and be recognized.

The beautifully crafted challenge given by Ms. Candy was strategically orchestrated at the point debarkation insinuating “What happens now?” We have had discussions about what happened last year.

Revision by revision she reeled me in and examined me for wounds of the past, and she encouraged me to dig deeper “This isn’t about them or no one else, it is about you.”

She heard words but she listened intently and saw a disconnect and kept on charming it to the surface so I could clearly see it for myself. When she dropped the one-thousand-pound helium bomb. “When is this happening?”

I truly believe she knew soul searching would begin. Ms. Candy it starts right now the “T” in SMART is revealed. The time is right now! My journey to True Health starts right now today. Thank you for really listening and giving me time to process it on my own.