This week’s blog is difficult to write, but I do find that expressing myself here helps somehow.

I am growing more inconsistent with the exercises this past week, and no it wasn’t a break week. Why, you ask? Well it doesn’t take much for me to get clarity on that – it’s a combination of a few things actually.

I have made incredible progress so far and my mindset has most definitely shifted to being positive focused, expecting the best in people and circumstances, and being optimistic.

Surprisingly, this fabulous change has caused me to place a lesser priority in continuing the very things that helped me get here. Weird.

If I go so far as to actually write what is going on in my brain (yes I am about to), it seems that the exercises seem more foolish to me now than they did at first! What in the world is that about!

Now I realize the ridiculousness of what I am writing…and doing, but still I continue. Have you ever met someone who is on a diet, successfully loses a few pounds from following the plan, but then they throw out half of the plan and figure they can manage on their own?

Yeah, well that’s what is going on in my head. There’s this great resistance again to doing simple exercises which I had worked comfortably into my daily life – now suddenly everything within me wants to avoid them at all costs.

It’s quite bizarre actually and I guess my best plan of attack is to simply get back on track with my daily exercises – ALL of them, not just The Sit.

On a positive note, I have been observing a lot. I’ve noticed my own personal addiction to overwhelm peptides and my need to run through the NARC exercise this week to deal with a different internal obstacle.

I have also observed myself demonstrating Courage (my word for the week) on many occasions.

While this deep resistance has me baffled a bit…and annoyed if I’m completely honest…I continue to put one foot in front of the other, one day at a time, not sure if this current resistance is due to cement or something else. In any event, I press on.