I wrote the next two paragraphs last Monday and wasn’t certain where I wanted to go with this blog. The remainder was written Saturday later at night (finished early Sunday AM) when I was tired, cold and feeling insignificant.

I give myself permission to be courageous, to notice all the abundance around me and bring that abundance into my life, to be whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.

In my early 20s, on my first cross country hitchhiking trip, I had made the beginnings of a plan. Travel to the Grand Canyon, backpack down and through it, then go on, to California, and do some sort of backpacking in the backcountry.

The beginning of the plan was executed without a hitch (pun intended). When I was in the backcountry somewhere in California, I became very unsettled. My solidly outlined plan had come to an end.

One night, I camped near a stream, the rushing water drowning out my jumbled thoughts. When I woke up, I had a new plan. Travel to the northern states, then cross country to Michigan’s upper peninsula and from there head back south to home in southeast Michigan.

Being lost in the wilderness, of my mind, this new plan gave me a goal, something to focus upon.

Looking back, I see this as a metaphor of my life. It seems I’ve gone from one distraction to another. And it’s not that those events in my life haven’t been important (several different businesses, a lifetime partner that I love, a family, a granddaughter, friends).

So why am I feeling like something has been missing? Why does it feel like “The Guy in the Glass” has been cheating himself.

There is this fear inside. Now it’s fear that as time passes by me and I’m not going 100% after what I have written I want; those things are not coming into my life, I’m not quite up to the task.

I’m not quite focusing, not quite acting like ‘I’m natures greatest miracle”, not quite “concentrating my energy on the challenge of the moment”. (Two quotes from GS, scroll IV)

Time to find that love in my heart, especially for myself. Time to charge forward. Time to find courage. Time to give myself permission to be happy, access the power within myself, to accept abundance, to learn easily and to happily complete everything I have begun.