Well, I took the past 2 days to do my 48 hours of silence. It was very interesting, to say the least. I know I will be late turning it in but I hope it helps someone regardless of when. I am just going to transcribe the notes I took during the process so here it goes.

5 hours into the silence and I am still 20 mins from home. I had to stop and get food and supplies for the next 2 days.

I haven’t said a word to anyone and have not turned on the radio, no texting or screen time. I’m sitting in a parking lot without too much thought as of yet but about to drive 2 plus hours to my friend’s beach house in Ocean Park where I will spend the next duration of my silence by myself and a fire.

It’s going to be interesting to see how it goes. I’m grateful for my wife’s handling everything while I am gone.

8 hours into it and made it to Chad and Michele’s beach house. I’m grateful Jenn suggested it and even more so that our best friends have a place for me to come and experience this mission in total solitude.

I think I’ve been here about 7 or 8 times and always hang in this game room which I will likely do tonight but it’s eerily quiet without the TV on. All I hear is the hum of the mini fridge, which is much more silent than the road has been for the past three hours.

This is going to be a unique experience. I brought some wood and my solo stove but I’m not sure if it’s going to rain or not and there isn’t a cover. I might go for a walk after this drink.

Almost a quarter done and about ready to lay down after my nighttime reads. I went for a brisk but short walk because it’s really dark out here and I didn’t bring a flashlight.

I did end up building a fire and sat by it for about an hour, thinking about writing a book and some characters who would be in it. When I came in, I smelled like smoke so I went to change when I realized I didn’t pack Shit, lol.

I brought two extra underwear, two different sweatpants (while wearing some) one extra-long sleeve short but zero socks other than what I am wearing and zero T-shirts. Luckily, I’ll be home in 36 hours but what the hell?

It’s been almost 24 hours so far and I woke up about an hour ago after trying to sleep as much as possible. Almost 10 hours. It’s a very comfy couch, same as ours, but I got up twice to pee. I’m starting my reads then hopefully I’ll be able to go for a nice walk on the beach if this rain lets up at all.

Well, I’m over the hump now with 21 hours to go and I find it very challenging currently. I just went for a quick trip to the general store for some carrots, celery, onion and garlic to throw in a crock pot with the rest of the whole chicken I got from Costco on the way here.

I’m gonna have it with some rice noodles in about 3 to 4 hours from now. Also, a pair of wool socks!

I haven’t yet had any incredible epiphanies, but I am sticking with total silence. One thing that came up last night was slow flickers of many past people in my life. Dozens came to mind and I wrote down their names.

Perhaps I’ll write a book about my life and how different people influence me for good over bad over all the years. Also the sense of “do not rush” came over me.

Something else that occurred to me before I went to the store is that I have had many areas of my life that still needs improvement. Especially being a better husband. I get upset with my wife for many things that she does and does not do but as I reflect on myself, I am guilty of many the same things.

It is not fair for me to hold any animosity or frustration with her if my own shit isn’t dialed in. I wrote down several things on a notecard that I can do to be a better husband, father and person in general. I promise to work on those!

The Internet in general has been 1000 times worse for us than all the TV was nearly 100 years ago. Yes, there has been some significant benefits to it and all the information at your fingertips.

Sadly, though it has stripped away most people’s original thought and contributions by being endlessly “entertained.” Except for the creators of content most of us all just consume things. Often it is educational, sometimes controversial but mostly just regurgitating someone else’s opinion.

About 16 hours to go and I returned to the pen after eating 2 bowls of my new chicken noodle recipe I actually wrote it down that was pretty easy to make. Here I am with the same thoughts as previously stated.

I want to turn something on, play a game, talk with someone, anything but sitting here quietly. That’s at least what I am observing with my body. I’m debating whether or not to start another fire, the rain has been soft but constant since last night.

The little cover in front of the game room provides little protection but I do love watching the flickering flames while I think about things.

I decided that I would start a fire and I went to sit in front of it for a few while I enjoyed my last drink of the night to see what else comes to me in my mind. I will do my final reads before bed and reflect once more about what I want.

Well as I was sitting by the amazing fire I felt compelled to come write down what I was thinking. As you know Master Key Experience (MKE) is all about discovering and achieving what someone truly desires.

While I am still struggling to really find my true DHARMA I do know that I think I shared in a previous blog is that I have absolutely achieved far more than I ever thought possible as a boy.

So what came to me is that I, or rather my subconscious self, just stopped climbing. Who am I to be on the world’s platform? What possibly could I offer those at the top of it all? Why would I think that the peak of my potential is greater than I ever thought my adult self could comprehend?

So again, WHAT DO I WANT? I must know at this point that it is all limitless – I can be, have, do whatever my heart desires. Why can’t I find it yet? I ultimately think it’s focused on others and how best to be in service.

I feel as though I am being blocked or distracted.

My greatness or best could be as good as anyone who has ever lived. Why isn’t it?

I don’t truly seek the likes of Musk, Bezos, Zuckerberg or those type; but I could most certainly be at the forefront of a meaningful podcast community or something else that could contribute to some very big thoughts and ideas to better understand or improve what we are all experiencing in life.

I’m about to lay down for the night by doing my reads first period I have roughly 12 hours left and a part of me wishes I could go further period easy to say with a warm buzz of whiskey and a comfy couch to lie down upon.

I’m merely a few minutes away from my 48 hours and I feel dazed but rested. I’ve picked up and packed up and about to drive away. I know I have gotten a few things out of this, mainly gratitude for where my life is and a stronger appreciation for my wife.

We both do a lot for our tribe but she has worked as hard upon the company over the past few months as I have been able to work on my world within. Based on what I’ve accomplished years ago I know there are no limits as to what we can accomplish.

Individually and together.

I will continue to improve my way of thinking, which is going to affect everything I want out of life, happiness, harmony, and peace through love.

God isn’t “out there” – he is in all of us and we’re all part of him. His gift to us is the ability to create whatever life we want but we must do it mindfully with intention and passion.

Sometimes it’s challenging with everything outside of us bombarding us with fear, worry or concern. We shut out all doubts and negativity, all we will be left with is love and anything is possible if that’s what we start with.

Until Next Time…………