When I first selected my PPNs at the beginning of the course, I picked helping others and autonomy.
As I went through the process of writing and rewriting my DMP, I finally realized that these were not the right PPNs for me, and somewhere around the end of December or the first of year, I moved to the PPNs of True Health and Liberty.
What a difference! It was almost like night and day for me when drafting my DMP. Words and goals flowed much more freely, and I finally felt like I was on the right track.
At 54 and a half, I focus on being healthy. I have no serious health problems, and I’ve always been the caretaker for others with their health problems.
Enter my new DMP focusing on True Health. I had been taking an assortment of vitamins and supplements, and I decided to back off and take a fresh start. I also committed to fast carbonated beverages for the month of January.
Fasting has been a lifelong practice for me since I was a child. In fact, if I realize something is overly consuming my time, attention, or appetite, I will discipline myself to reduce or eliminate it from my life.
I had experienced some light discomfort in my left hip and left lower back, mostly from sitting on an uncomfortable sofa and sleeping on my left side on a less-than-supportive bed in our one-room temporary situation that has now gone on for over three years.
I was basically told this is just how it is, so I’ve tried to stay positive and make the best of it.
Then February arrived. There was no specific traumatic event, just discomfort in my left hip and leg where I was unable to stand still. Sitting relieved it, until it continued to get worse and started cramping and aching.
Over the course of the past month, it has been inconvenient, excruciating at times, definitely life-changing. The mobility and activity I had taken for granted was much curtailed.
There has been an urgent care visit, out-patient scans, and an emergency room visit with the waves of cramps and pain became too much to bear.
In my sits, I would focus on my PPNs, True Health and Liberty, and consider the fact that my health has appeared to have gotten worse instead of better. The freedom of movement and bodily liberty I had has been temporarily reduced.
My conclusion has been that I had an illusion of health and liberty, but there were underlying currents of poor health and restriction that had gone unnoticed. As long as I kept moving and stayed active, all seemed good, even if it wasn’t.
This experience has caused me to slow down, focus on the now, and consider my comfort or discomfort at the given time. I am doing neuromovement exercises creating and/or reconnecting neurons in my brain and body.
I am declaring, “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, and happy,” and other powerful true health affirmations.
There’s a quote that says sometimes things have to fall apart so they can come back together better. I surrender the illusion of health I had for the deep rebuilding of True Health that is happening and the increased Liberty that will be the result.
