I found week 4 supplemental to be especially rewarding. Emotional addiction. Living fully can’t be achieved when we keep living out the same behavioral patterns over and over. (New place, same drama!) My emotional addiction of choice is anger and my subby believes it is protecting me.

Even as I write this, it is screaming to me not to. If I write it, it becomes real. If my addiction hasn’t been fed in a while, I find things to be angry about. Climate change, inequality, corruption, it’s not hard. I now realize I need to change the lens on my subconscious camera.

I need to focus my lens on love. My love for the planet, justice and equality.

I’ve skipped ahead in “The Greatest Salesman in the World” to chapter 11, Scroll IV.
“I am nature’s greatest miracle”. I need to re- program subby in this way first because the message I have sent it since I can remember is that I have no value. My message to subby had been that if I were not born, it wouldn’t make a difference.

I can’t imagine being capable of putting love out into the world as is the next chapter, Scroll II, unless I love my own existence and believe what I do matters. I need to believe that I matter.

So, I am skipping to that chapter and find I have a strong desire to read it over and over even more than 3 times a day!

I wonder if since a male wrote this book, he was born into a world where he was told in many ways that he matters, because society values males. Females are told in many ways that their value lies in what they give to others, not in themselves.

Women are told they have value through childbirth and “helping” men achieve their goals. A woman might have put this chapter first.

Am I selling my point of view? I also see where even though I am not selling a product, a material good, I always want to be able to sell my ideas, my perspective. So, I am grateful for this book. I am grateful I took a chance and believed it would have value.