I know I can write a good DMP in the ‘proper’ way. I realize it is a work in progress and I understand the rules about not using a word we don’t want (such as living debt-free or pain-free or fill-in-the-blank of the negative- free) as we don’t even want the word spoken.

And I can envision a life I want. But I’m having such a difficult time distinguishing between what I want and a “definite major purpose.” Am I just too hung up on semantics? Many things I want and envision in an ideal life worth living don’t necessarily feel like my ‘purpose’ let alone a “definite major” one.

So I’m starting with this blog instead. Get the juices going so to speak, the hand writing, the heart speaking.

The ego wants to jump in and judge of what is worthy, what is selfish, and asks questions such as “who are you to want and deserve that” and “you haven’t worked hard enough or smart enough for that outcome.”

And then I look over at the quote printed and framed beautifully on the wall in front of me by Marianne Williamson – the long one starting with “our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” She says our paying small does not serve the world.

It certainly doesn’t serve us individually – but collectively when we all play small it sure feeds the system. So on that note – time to write out my ideal life in the present tense. And keep it short – this post already is about 300 words!

As for my true purpose in life – this is unfolding and a work in progress. Round one begins.