I have fallen from my habits-horse again and again. And again I rise and re-saddle. Staying down is not an option. It never will be. I am the Hero of my story and my journey is long, so I must continue to ride on and push forward.

I know that the more I stay down the longer it will take for me to become the man I truly desire to be. The man I can and will be.

I can be what I will to be – I can be who I long to be.

I am blessed – I have an amazing life and I am making good progress towards my DMP, goals and dreams. I am an extremely strong and powerful being, but when I fail to keep up with my MKE habits and deliverables it makes me weaker, I can feel it.

Each and every time I don’t keep a commitment to myself it allows another small chip of cement to reform around me, further hiding my true self from this world.

My word for last week was discipline and I know that when my discipline strengthens, I will become even stronger, more capable, and my life will become even more amazing. And those chips of cement will fall again, but they will take with them even bigger chunks than before.

I persist – I win.

I have been on similar journeys in the past, for example – performing daily SAVERS with the Miracle Morning, gratitude journalling, meditations and reflections.

All gave me more power, but for some reason, every time, there is always a resistance that builds and pulls me away from continuing with my good habits.

Many times in my life I have succumbed to the little voices that want to keep me small. Making conscious decisions in a moment to ignore my true selfs calling. Those were the many moments when my internal battles could and should have been won.

I was capable of winning each and every time, but I allowed myself to lose, to play small, to choose comfort, safety or certainty.

Too many times have I allowed my Dragons to drag me backwards – they are constantly there, trying to pull me back towards the darkness and away from the light. That bright shining light that wants me there, and perhaps it is the universal mind, wanting to shine onto me, making me more powerful, but also to shine through me.

Maybe to attract and guide others towards its goodness, pulling them away from their own darkness and giving them the strength they need to fight their own dragons – giving them the power they need to slay those dragons and leave them behind, defeated so they will not return again anytime soon.

I know these daily habits are powerful. I enjoy the feeling of getting them done and ‘doing it now’. What I still don’t understand is why I allow myself to be pulled away from them so easily?

Why do I so often allow myself to feel comfortable to put them off in the moment? Knowing full well that it will always make me a little weaker, consciously allowing my discipline and power to fade with each missed practice, and then making the next harder to perform.

A vicious cycle that becomes harder to break.

The silver lining is that when I do break the cycle I always come back feeling even stronger than before.

And, what I do know is that this long journey I am on, the constant struggles and battles with my dragons, the strength and tenacity that has built up within me, allowing me to persist through the darkness and the relentless resistance.

It all gives me more opportunities to grow my strength and skills to not only move forward on my own journey, but to gain the experience and skills required to be able to guide others on their own journeys and to support them in battling their own dragons along the way.

I can be there for others as others are there for me. I am grateful for all my guides on this journey – especially my tribe, the ‘Quan Tribe’ – we journey together, supporting each other and holding the light to guide each-other’s path in times of darkness.

I have found a group of strong allies, other powerful beings and light-bringers. QT, I appreciate you pulling me along when I am falling behind. I am very grateful for your guidance, support and love.

And I am no longer fooled by the convincing garments that disguise my opportunities, I will not be deceived. I can see through the dragons and I can see the light through all things, revealing the lessons that are there to teach me and to help me grow.

I am natures greatest miracle and nothing will stop me from moving forward on my hero’s journey.

I am a hero – It is time to stop refusing the call. It is time to stop consciously choosing to lose my battles. From now on – I ALWAYS PERSIST – I ALWAYS WIN.