Today was a transformative day for me.

Today I read my DMP aloud with gusto for the first time since the Master Key Experience started. This enabled me to read my Blueprint Builder with enthusiasm. I submitted a DMP to meet the deadline for submitting the DMP, but it did not ring true for me and did not excite me. I’ve been toying with revising it ever since but seemed very stuck. I couldn’t figure out what it should be.

Yesterday I was still stuck and was figuring that I was just going be out of the course. Today I woke up, knowing what my DMP should be, and after I got back from my haircut, I sat down and wrote it and submitted it. What a relief!

It’s hard to put into words how hard it had begun to be to read the blueprint builder when I was reading things that were not true. I did not “have a clearly written down description of my DEFINITE CHIEF AIM in my life,” and to have to say that each time I read it became harder and harder. It was a matter of integrity for me to the point that I didn’t even read it yesterday.

Creating the habits to do the course as designed has been very challenging for me. I haven’t had a normal week since it started. Yom Kippur (the Day of Atonement) started before dark on October 1 and ended after dark the next day I spent mostly in synagogue.

The next day was my 81st birthday and I flew to California from New Jersey on to be with my 8-year-old granddaughter and family. Being with them and looking for places, I might want to move to and attending Harper’s events made creating new habits challenging.

I flew home this Wednesday and was in kind of a meltdown mode yesterday. Today I woke up tired but clearheaded for the first time in quite a while. I finally feel like I am starting to understand and birth new habits as described in The Scroll Marked I.