MKE Week 4 – Shifting Focus

Reading Part 4 in the Master Key, I was struck by part of passage 30, wherein it is written:

…mentally let go of all adverse conditions, such as hatred, anger, worry, jealousy, envy, sorrow, trouble or disappointment of any kind. Charles Haanel, Master Key System 4:30

I began to see, in my meditation, paying attention to the thoughts that would recur, that most of my unconscious babble is focused on everything that is wrong with me, wrong with the things and events from the past, and wishful thinking about my family of origin.

I realize that most of this is born out of the trauma and abuse from my childhood, and a lifetime of being told that I am not enough – not good enough, not obedient enough, not subservient enough, not smart enough, not deferential enough.

I hear in my thoughts how I have internalized and continued the abuse and trauma of my youth, of my family, how I perpetuate these messages by allowing them to play over and over in my mind.

I struggle with replacing these recurring thoughts with thoughts of my choosing, by becoming the creator of my own mind, by consciously replacing the old undercurrents with “higher, loftier, grander and more noble ideals.”

I cried for myself, then committed to moving forward, knowing “now is the time to make the effort”. Do it now, do it now, do it now….