I ALWAYS experience a deep, heart-born feeling when I have a realization, an “Aha” moment. Being a “Blue”, the feeling, whatever it is, sorrow, jubilation, frustration, satisfaction, anger, etc. is passionate.
This week my feeling was an “Awakening”. I have been speaking to the Gal in the Glass. When I am in my “sits” she chimes in. When I go for my walks or jogs, she tags along with me.
When I am performing massages on my clients and they are silent, the music therapeutically slow, the room is warm, the Gal will whisper to me, “Don’t Cheat Me”.
I ask her, “what is it? What is it that is holding me back, right now? What has perpetuated this rollercoaster of self-pity, lack of confidence and follow-through for certain goals??”
This week, the lesson brought clarity!! I nearly cried right there in my seat. It felt cleansing and as I wiped away crocodile tears that found their way to my cheek, I worked to re-focus on Davene’s voice.
It has been a challenge for me to connect all the dots, to add another layer. Some weeks it’s a Grand Slam in comprehension and other weeks; I am the Strike-out Queen.
I knew it was going to be a challenge to keep pace with all the commitments I had piled up on myself this year, this fall. However, I knew I could do it. I always stick to my commitments.
I am learning to be patient with myself, to stop always expecting perfection in everything I do. The NOISE, the CEMENT has made me that way. I know now who and what has trapped the Gal in the Glass keeping her stuck in resentment and regret.
There! I said it, I admitted it. I have forgiven in the past and now I am once again. Whew, what a load off my shoulders! The Gal winks at me, nods her head and smiles.
The lessons are all coming together. The tasks, services, the WPOA, the shapes, colors, the compass, the movie trailer and poster, the recordings, the sits, the readings, the affirmations, the Mental Diet, DO IT NOW!!!!
I have always had confidence that I could accomplish and achieve. I knew as a girl I wanted to be a PE Teacher and Coach, I became a successful one. I knew I had the skills and desire to play collegiate volleyball and run track & cross country. I participated in both sports at the NCAA Division II level as a walk-on.
I wanted to run a marathon and I did. I knew I needed to divorce my first husband though my heart did not want to. I did and went on to thrive. (Emerson’s law of Compensation- Embracing Dualities).
I faced a time in my teaching career that I would be better off walking away from the industry and I did. I became a Massage Therapist and started my own business.
That was in my life plan, but to achieve after I had retired from Education. I have had many goals I did not achieve earlier because I let the nay-sayer(s) influence my self-worth (concrete).
The Master Key Experience has provided me the means and tools to get back on track in a structured program, a well thought out plan of action! When I participated in the Vision workshop early September this year, I knew I needed the Master Key Experience.
My DMP has been a concept in my mind for over two decades, but the concrete kept me from believing in myself, from going after it. Another divorce this year created a desperate need for additional income for me to be able to provide for myself, again. Another opportunity!
I still have a few tasks to complete, which I will. I am more motivated now. I understand better and I am EXCITED to do it. I notice shapes and colors all around me.
Motivational sayings that address exactly the distress I have lived with over the past year started appearing in my social media, on billboards, commercials, friends’ messages, once I joined the Master Key Experience.
I have always believed in positivity, kharma, what you put out into the Universe comes back to you. I care about people. Once I allowed myself to accept gratitude from my clients through gratuities, friends and strangers ‘s help and compliments as I have always given, I readily started getting things I wanted.
I want that Gal in the Glass as my best friend and confidant. I may experience set-backs here and there, but I am moving FORWARD. I CAN BE WHAT I WILL MYSELF TO BE!!!
