On my second pass through the Master Key Experience (MKE) coursework, I realize just how different my headspace is now compared to this week last year.
One massive indication of growth showed up this week: when people vent their emotionally charged reactions, conclusions, judgments and opinions toward me, I let them.
I simply, let them.
I remain calm and collected while they have their emotional overreaction.
I attribute this new self-assuredness to two things.
First: Working diligently to master the MKE-recommended Sit
Whether it is a sit lasting 10 minutes or 30, I find that I actually like my mind after doing a sit. This feels like a miracle tool that I can apply anytime, anywhere, in privacy.
That knowledge—knowing what to do, how to do it, and actually doing it—yields immense personal power.
Second: The Cleanse
I began a cleanse the same week I started Week 1 of MKE. It could be a coincidence, as I have attempted this many times in the last year and just couldn’t follow through.
I chose to use the collective momentum generated by the incoming MKE participants to support my choice to begin this cleanse.
I like to begin dietary changes on a Friday because by the time you get through the weekend, you’re already halfway through your week! Time seems to travel faster over the weekend than it does starting Monday morning.
I have meticulously documented this journey, noting everything from physiological findings to physical symptoms. A cleanse of this nature is a truly fascinating endeavor!
I focus on what I’m doing in the “now” to improve my health by merging protocol aligned action with resulting symptoms. This knowledge based approach to health keeps me as an engaged participant building my health from deep within.
The questions of how to make this cleansing period more effective came to me throughout different physical healing moments on this journey.
Silence is NOT Inactivity in my case
What looks like inactivity to some—behavior that some have judged as “not taking the program seriously”—is not true in my experience.
This MKE environment is very supportive; ultimately, everyone wants the students to become self-directed and take action. It is well known that resistance to change is a powerful force. And yet, what looks like inactivity on the surface is actually masking deep change within.
So, for those who have been judging me for my seemingly not taking action: I forgive you.
I say that with much love and understanding.
I have never felt such a strong sense of community cheering on my success as I have experienced in this program.
I believe everyone is taking action reflective of where they are at in their self development.
That “best” is different every day because we’re all dealing with a wide variety of known and unknown internal pressures and external demands on our time.
Mark J says to be grateful even for the negative things that happen to you because there is good that results from that negative experience. Very true!
Had I not received some of that “misdirected support,” I don’t know if I would have realized that I am absolutely fine standing on my own without “support” from a negative, irrational source.
Breaking the Chain
This breaks the chain of behavior I grew up with. Parenting is challenging, especially when you are a parent before you even understand your own emotional makeup.
I forgive my parents. I truly believe they did the best they could and continue to do so.
However, I also believe that I can take the lead and walk away from anyone who is talking to me in an irrational and hyper-emotional way.
Their expressed high level of emotions may indicate that they care a lot.
The fact is, in that moment of highly charged emotional outburst… is about themselves. I’m simply there being verbally puked on.
Now I protect myself by stepping out of that acidic exchange.
“Thank you for caring so much. When you calm down, we can continue this conversation.”
Then I take my leave.
That stop doesn’t always win friends. Yet, it does something better.
It preserves my soul alive.
This week, I stood my ground with the two loudest, emotionally charged and jump-to-conclusion personalities currently in my life.
My action came from within.
No need for declarations.
I simply stepped aside.
Truly, I wish them both well.
I am so proud of myself for protecting myself from that misguided “help”.
This woman is beginning to put herself first in a very matter-of-fact way.
No over-explaining. No high-running emotions. No searching blindly for justification and acceptance from personalities that don’t have themselves organized yet.
These personalities may never be able to give me the understanding or acceptance I’m seeking. And that’s OK.
I will find what I’m looking at the right time that I need it.
In the meantime, I will do my Daily Habits as I see fit.
It’s like I’ve reached a point of peace both internal and when interacting with others.
You want to argue? You have a need to win an argument and you’ve chosen me to be the one you are arguing with?
LOL
OK, you win.
The arguing doesn’t even have a chance to begin because I simply won’t engage with you in that way.
I have no desire to argue with anyone anymore. I don’t have a need to be proven ‘right’ by winning an external argument.
When a person cannot get out of themselves long enough to understand someone else’s point of view, then the subject needs to be changed.
Let’s talk about lunch! Or any other neutral topic.
I have searched for and found a few special gems throughout my life who loved me as a person, where we could discuss anything.
Sometimes they offered immediate support. Other times they offered questions to enable me to ponder before I took action.
There was no yelling.
There were no expressed extreme emotions.
There were no threats of withdrawing their love, their presence, or their friendship.
I like who I’m becoming.
I’m so glad to finally meet you, Stephanie.
#Onward!
