First to say…
Lala, Luky & Schaa; LOVE YA!
This is not my 1st time in this Journey. Had several attempts. Like a lesson which repeats and come into my life until is learned – and finished.
Headache… What to write? What to say? Never closer and never harder…
Last few months were so mixed, also confusing. At same time you are thankful for life but also wish to change it.
Numerous things… I always thought that I could change others. Or some related things with them. That I thought so long until I realized that I was on the wrong train.
This train goes and takes my life somewhere where I do not want to go.
SOOO, I have decided to restore my life! Why restore? Because we already have it. Anyone.
It is simple but I have never taught me that will be so hard. Hard to keep simple things in your habits. Habits like your thoughts, sitting still, reading, etc.
Earlier had someone tell me:” You are BLUE”!
Blue, so simple color. So simple word. But it sounds so strong. And says a lot in emotion.
I do not how to tell you all… I want to be a little bit less BLUE! In many senses of this word.
I have many personal reasons. My family is for me all that I need. If they are not happy in any way.
I am also not. And backwards… if am not happy, they are also not.
I will do anything for them!
And how that goes in life, you must be careful with this… Your thoughts, your every single day decisions… have led to changes. Some I wish to make, some changes I must to take.
I have some big losses meanwhile and some big wins.
One of big wins is that I have realized, not all people are aware of that, that they feel BLUE. My life is BLUE.
Thx to Mariska, because here I have heard about MKMMA for the first time. I miss her so much.
“The mind is constantly generating thoughts, and the voice of the heart is drowned out by the ‘thought churn’ making it difficult to access intuitive knowledge. If you stop the train of thoughts and simply contemplate the emptiness, you will hear the rustle of the morning stars, the inner voice that has no words. The heart could provide answers to many of our questions if only we could hear its voice.
Take a moment to listen yourself and you will listen the rustle of morning stars” V.Z.
Mariska, I miss you…
Wherever you are – I hope you are well and have found your peace.
Start to be better life. In any way that you wish.
Hope to see many people join me on this journey.
Welcome back, know that every time you come back, you are growing and expanding by discovering new realisations.
It’s wonderful to read about your compassion to yourself and others, Ivan.
Enjoy listening to the rustle of the morning stars!
Ivan, I am so glad you are here to do this work. Yes, it is hard work but it really pays off what you put in manyfold. You are definitely Blue as I can feel your caring and loving heart towards your family and people in your life. That’s great!