Greet this day with love in my heart.
Well, I blew it today! This one surgeon I work with is quite difficult to get along with! No one likes him-at least not at work! He’s really tall and imposing. He closes his eyes when he talks to you.
He’s quite condescending -Everyone is stupid except for him: “If they had real doctors in the ER, this [complication] would not have happened.”
How do I say “I love you” silently, when I just want to scream at him!! He micromanages EVERYTHING I DO! I’m just trying to care for my patients, best that I can (and with love).
What to do? What to do? I tried so hard –well, maybe I didn’t really try so hard). There was definitely no love shining in my eyes today! How do I turn this around?
Inhale, breath in through your heart. Exhale and “Let go of the day!” Joe Dispenza on my way home, I feel better. I’ll bring my shield for his insults tomorrow. I’ll smile at him, answer him in the calmest, softest voice.
It’ll take me more than one try to silently say: “I love you,” but I’m there. Give him no reason. Meditate just a bit more, it’s a miracle, but I try.
Yes, We all can have these kind of days. This too shall pass and remember do your best.
This is so real and so relatable, Carole. Your raw honesty about the struggle is everything. That feeling of being micromanaged while just trying to do your job with love is incredibly frustrating.
But your turnaround is nothing short of beautiful. Taking that breath, deciding to respond with a soft voice and a smile—that isn’t backing down, that’s rising up. That is true spiritual warrior energy. The intention to silently say “I love you” is a powerful practice that will transform you, regardless of his reaction.
Thank you for this powerful reminder that we can choose our response. Keep going. Your effort is a miracle in itself.
Carole, your transparency helps everyone…thank you! I took care of my mom who had bipolar illness and a wise woman taught me to speak in silence to the God-in-her, her Higher Source–when she was being mean and critical. The result was amazing…invisible but real calm and grace.
Oh Carol,
how well I know this from my everyday life at the hospital! I’m facing the same challenge right now. Those “nice” colleagues who love to stab you in the back or try to embarrass you, teamwork really seems to be a foreign word for some. From my ego’s point of view, it’s truly exhausting.
At the moment, two things help me the most:
I bless them silently, and whenever I notice myself reacting emotionally, I remind myself that otherwise I’m giving my energy away to these “energy vampires.” I have to be wiser and quicker than they are, loving and clear. I take a deep breath and bring myself back to my joy and love!
I’m convinced that once I’ve truly learned this lesson, those unpleasant colleagues will either stop bothering me or simply disappear.
Hi Carole. Keep your heart open. What if he sees something in you and is challenging you to step forward?