Christmas came and went just like it always does. Ours was relatively normal, going to my mother-in-law’s house for ham and all the fixins.

Presents for the only 2 kids in the family, my soon to be 13-yr old daughter and my 5-yr old nephew. Watching them opening stuff with football in the background. It was simply a nice afternoon.

It changed for the worse in a minute, right when my wife, daughter and I got home. A silly little disagreement on our driveway blew up into a huge fight with my wife. I’ll spare the details but we didn’t speak to one another for almost 24 hrs.

We argue and fight about things more than I wish we would, but after almost 30 years together certain frustrations build up over time and pressure overcomes our will.

I struggle with letting things go at times, especially with my wife when I know I am right about something. My brother asked me once why I choose digging in over peace. My answer was that I cannot help it. Something in my past will not allow me to stop pressing or give in.

When I am right about something and it’s not acknowledged I feel as though I am being called a liar. That infuriates me to no end. When I am wrong, I will eagerly admit it, or I simply say I do not know and don’t argue, but if I KNOW I am right I just can’t stop myself.

So, is that persistence or is it the Bear pot kettle thing Davene has talked about? Am I manifesting fights so I can prove my correctness or am I holding to my principles when they arise?

It is certainly a struggle for me and I am not sure how to handle it moving forward. I am aware of it, being the observer but that concrete is very thick on this particular topic. I am legitimately confused.

I am doing well maintaining my reads, cards, shapes, etc…but struggle with the sit. I am also challenged by my guide regarding my DMP.

Something tells me there is the same blockage with that. Not that I am right or my guide is wrong but something is holding me back from having it perfectly written. I will continue onwards though, until I get it right.

Until Next Time……