Emotional Subby

All I can think is how much I wish I had heard about this program 20 years ago. The years that have been wasted thinking I didn’t know what I wanted because in truth I didn’t dare to believe I could attain that ideal.

I didn’t believe in myself, or that I could let go and make the sacrifices necessary.
Now that I have the faith and the will, my health is an issue. I want to yell it to everyone…. DON’T PUT IT OFF!! DON’T HESITATE!

I’ve always had trouble with routine. The trouble is, I hate routine. I don’t find routine comforting. I go dead inside. So swapping out a habit of no routine for a routine has been difficult.

My subconscious has been speaking to me as long as I can remember through my very vivid, sometimes terrifying dreams. I feel emotions exponentially stronger in my dreams than in my conscious world.

My dreams have sometimes directed me, made me aware of something I didn’t see. I have come to really enjoy sleeping. But if I could be in touch with my subconscious without being asleep, wouldn’t that be better?!