Just Don’t Quit!
Ugh!!! During week three, I felt more confidence about the “system”, the steps, the process. I thought I was understanding, grasping the concepts, how much, when, what…then SPLAT! Week four put me in a tailspin. I am panicking to catch up, to understand the progression.
My “feelings” overwhelmed me last night. I was experiencing so many: frustration, worry, sorrow, incompetence, anger, even despair. All of these were manifesting into physical symptoms, headache, backache, fatigue, lack of focus.
“NOW, is a good time to just ‘sit and be.” I told myself. I closed my computer, put my notebook away and prepared a warm, Epsom salt bath. I set a candle on the vanity, lit it then turned the lights out and submerged myself into the water. I closed my eyes and just focused on me, my body, the quiet.
I emerged after 20 minutes feeling more grounded and supported. I was going to be okay. The work will get done and I will feel proud of myself.
As long as I keep going, keep working at it, keep telling subby I am good, purposeful, needed and successful, my world will be what it is suppose to be for me.
Fantastic job Diane. Terrific job observing where you were and taking action to bring everything back into focus. You got this!
Wow! Great example of replacing negative thought with relaxation! Reprogramming your neural network so that when that sense of overwhelm may be approaching you can now go to that happy place of peace and calm instead. This crisis brought you to the point of application of what you are learning. Thank you so much for sharing!
Nicely Done, Diane. Good job not letting stress get the best of you! I might have to try your method!!
Good job, Diane. You were kind to yourself and ready to move forward!