Yesterday I got to look at how much of my life I’m doing it my way. Also got to see how doing in my way doesn’t work. I was doing the assignments from what I remembered instead of going to the workbook and following the instructions.

Of course, I wasn’t doing it the way it was supposed to be done. How could they be? And then Mark’s words on the video echoed in my mind, and I could hear him urging us to take these assignments seriously and do them as directed.

I’ve heard it said that how you do one thing is how you do everything. This week is an example of that in my life. I have a lot of decisions to make in the next couple weeks and I’ve been resisting doing that, just as I’ve been resisting doing the homework exactly as written and intended.

I realize that I should have updated my DMP by yesterday which I didn’t do. I’ve been thinking about it, about the DMP, and feeling stuck like I don’t know what I really want.

Avoidance was my alternative to sitting down I with a pen and paper and working on it. I’m really good at avoiding, but that doesn’t give me what I want in life.

I’d like to say lately, but I just saw writing this, that avoidance is a habit that doesn’t serve me and I’ve been a slave to for years. As Og says the only way to change a habit it is to replace it with another habit. Looks like I have my work cut out for me.

I will replace the habit of avoiding with the habit of acting even when or especially when it makes me uncomfortable to do so. Amazing what happens when you write. This is not where I thought I would’ve ended up when I started this post.